Events of the past

The weekend came and went... Back to the killing fields in 10 hours..
I'm pretty ready to be done and gone. I've come to the realization that my internal churning is not yet complete, and I've still got thoughts to think and feelings to feel, and so I return to my Ivory tower to rethink my life and sort out my dreams.

Dinner with Cas on Sat was a marvelous time, as always, The Jazz bar was a little tight and crowded, but I liked it nonetheless. I think if a return visit occurs, Cas may venture beyond the mundane realm of Caeser Salad, and perhaps promote herself to BB's Linguini.

Apart from that, My weekend has been spent unfrying my brain from the hordelands of coop, and introspecting to what I want, and at the same time .... balancing that against what i'm ready for. Jocelyn is a hidden marvel in assisting one into looking to themselves sometimes.

Started writing again. Tepid flows at first. We'll see where it leads. Balance in All, what.

Realized today that I want to care about things again, and that I have begun to do so. Care about how I look, care about how I think, what I do. Care about school. I can get better marks, so I'm going to. Going to do a lot of things.

Expect not to hear a lot from me in the future. Churning is occuring, Being careful. Being patient. Growth. Need to become who I am and who I want to be, without ego, without concern for petty things. I can be better than I am, and I will be. Now I must do it.