STRESS

I am very stressed out.

I have spent like, four days working on this problem at work. The output I was getting from my program was just absolute garbage. It looked Basically like this:



After hunting for days for what was causing it, I finally found it.
Instead of:

fopen(File, "rb");

I had typed

fopen(File, "r");

Which means it was opening the file in text mode, which ordinarly doesn't matter, except every time my program happened to run across data of the form 0x1A, it would treat it as the end of file, and return 0xCCCC.... which was a valid form of data for this program. Didn't crash it, just sent it wrong, but valid, data back.


ARRGGGGH...

Here's the output after I typed 'b' in that little line of code:




See how it's all nice and smooth and spikes at exactly one point, just like I want? Yeah. Very frustrating. Beyond that, I was chastised that as a human i'm allowed to make mistakes, but as a programmer i'm not allowed to repeat them (since I have had this problem in a different piece of code, but causing different errors).

Bah.

Sung Yong (My old, and favorite, Kendo Sensei) is leaving on friday, and unfortunately I can't go to his goodbye match. Not happy.

I feel like i'm being yanked in 6 different directions. I need to stop taking on things outside of my primary focus. It's not so much that I feel I have so much to do and not enough time to do it in, I just feel a LOT of pressure from all sides, and I have so many things that my mind is on, none of them seem to be going my way.

Curling was good on Saturday, i'm very sore. It's strange to see some of my older relatives, like my Great Uncle Charlie. I remember him being witty and cheerful, and now he looks around blankly, walking stiffly, saying little or nothing... I've never really been worried about my mortality, but I dunno. It makes me sad to see these people fade away.

*sigh* Anyway, I guess acting like a sick puppy isn't going to make any of this better, so i'd better just hikeup my bootstraps and get at it.